I want to feel something definite; not this vague uneasy awful filling that just keeps building inside me.
I don't want to explode.
(Edit: Also, any music suggestions. I've lately gotten sick of all the things I had been listening to, and so I went back to my defaults. But I've already gotten sick of the Trews and Great Big Sea, and am paring down my Decemberists playlist daily. This means I will soon run out, and then I don't know what I'll do.)