The thing that I couldn't help but think, while I was watching the ceremonies, was that dammit, I want to be good at something. Really good at something. Like, really really good. I don't have to be world's best or anything. Just really really good.
And it's not just because of the world's best athletes. It was the incredible choreographers and dancers and composers and musicians and everything. It was all amazing. There are so many talented people in the world, and I'm just not one of them.
The only thing I've ever really been good at is school, and since coming to university, not even that anymore. I guess I get praised for being really good at taking minutes, but like, really? That's such a lame thing to be really good at. I also don't super-love doing it, and what's the point of being good at something you don't love?
The little voice that wants me to be happy says "It's okay, you're really good at being you! And that's all that matters." I know I should listen to it, but damn. I want to be amazing.